Fuh. This week was a tough one. You just need one day to ruin the whole mood of the week. Luckily, it happened on the last day of the week, ie, yesterday. So let’s reflect.
Basically, I had to face my weakness, which more of than not, comes from my own inner fear, and it didn’t go well. Worst part is, my inner fear was called out by one of the leaders. Truth to be told, this inner fear of mine was indeed running through my mind but I thought I could get away with it, as usual, although I know some day it will come and bite me if I don’t do anything about it.
If that leader called it out, I’m sure other leaders may have not noticed too. But it takes a great leader to have the courage to tell me the truth. And I think he has just gained a new level of respect from me.
I guess I really needed the nudge. The question is, what do I do now? Let it slip away until I have to face the inner fear again? Or embrace it, and really do something about it. Obviously the answer is the latter, but it’s not easy. But if I want to sit on a board one day, I better start cracking at it now.
On a personal level, Aariz has shown that his level of understanding has increased. He knows when I say “put on your shoes”, “let’s go back now”, “I have to go to work now so see you later”, “put on your pants” and many more. It’s wonderful to see him grow. It’s even more enriching when he understands but purposely does the opposite because he is just trying to be cheeky.
I love you, Aariz. I’ll make you proud of me. I want you to go to school one day and tell your friends about me because you are proud of me. And of course, because you love me and I inspire you a lot. I hope. ❤️
Dayana Omar 